So, today I was talking with this lady that I supervise about an 18 month old. She didn't understand why she actually had to go do a face-to-face visit with the 18-month old, and said that she wouldn't learn anything that the mom couldn't tell her. Okay, well other than the fact that it's your JOB, and BY LAW, you have to visit her at least once a month, it's an opportunity to see what this girl's personality is like. The woman I was talking with is in her 50's, and has 4 kids of her own. She asked me what she was supposed to do with the girl when she visits. She said, "Well, it isn't like she has a personality or can talk yet. What am I supposed to do with her?"
Um, I don't have kids of my own yet, but by 18 months, they definitely have a personality, even if they aren't doing much speaking yet. That's like THE time that they begin to really develop their personality. How could she NOT know this after having 4 kids? I won't even address the fact that she didn't know what to do with the child when she was visiting. She was like, "Well, what if she doesn't want to play with me? Am I supposed to just watch her play?" Um, yes. Yes you are.
The other day, I was browsing MySpace, and was SHOCKED at how many people my age (and younger) already have babies. One girl that I knew growing up is 2+ years younger than I am (putting her at about 20), and she just gave birth to her SECOND baby. It was just kind of a crazy eye-opener for me because I still feel way too young and immature to have kids. And not to sound conceited here, but I am probably WAY more mature than most of these girls that I went to high school with.
Anyways, the whole point of this is that I don't know if it's just that I'm scared of being pregnant because it's something that I will have absolutely no control over, or if I'm really, genuinely not ready to have kids. I'm definitely becoming more open to the idea of having a baby--while we're not actively trying to have kids (TMI!), I would probably be pretty darn happy and excited if I were to get pregnant. Though, I would also probably freak out due to the massive financial burden called a mortgage that we just took on!
You are all forbidden to tell J about this or he'll start trying to sweet talk me into it right now. And I will probably give in because he is the master of sweet talk. Seriously. Silence, or I kill you 'til you're dead. Bonus points if you can name that quote.